Wow. Time has truly flown by. I completely forgot that I even had this blog until some girls started making their own. Sophomore year has started, and yes, it has been a little better than freshman year. Not horrible like some years, but not great. I've learned a lot, made new friends, and experienced different things. But still not a great year.
I'm still incredibly anxious, and still really sad. I wish I wasn't, but I'm constantly reminded of what I don't expereince and how much happier other people are. I want to be out with friends all the time, but since I don't have a license nor do my friends, it really limits us to what we can do. Not only that, but I don't feel like my friends really like me and want me to hang out with them. I feel SO out of the loop all the time. I don't feel like even my best friend wants to talk to me, because she has someone better to tell her secrets to.
Regardless, it's been an up and down year. My school gave everyone an iPad, and I've been trying to learn self-control. My grades have slipped because of these stupid iPads, but luckily I've gotten them back now. I've had trouble trying to focus on schoolwork, and I have little to no motivation to do any studying. I'm in yearbook, and it's been great. I love knowing what I'm working towards. But I feel like I don't belong there. I don't feel like I've really become good friends with the staffers and I feel out of place when I'm with them. Whatever. There's always next year.
Anyways, hers a little catch up for not being on here since August. xoxo
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